While perusing past entries over at spn-gen-bigbang I found this summary for a fic in the 2012 bigbang that I'd love to read. However, I can't seem to find it anywhere, and was wondering if:
A) was it actually posted,
B) was it posted but later taken down, or
C) posted but my Google foo has deserted me.
Here is the original summary:
Take My Hand, Rescue Me
Warnings::: Hurt!Sam, Hurt!Dean, Catatonic!Dean, Bad Father!John, Child Abuse - mostly in the form of verbal and neglect, Mentions of 9-yr-old Dean in diapers, Mild Gore, Foul Language, Author's complete suck at summaries.
Summary::: This is an AU Wee!chester fic. It begins when Dean is nine and thus Sammy is five.
With John off on another hunt, something evil attacks Sammy - and Dean - on Dean's watch. It leaves Sam half-dead, and Dean shattered. While Sam heals, John holds a grudge against his eldest and sends an already fragile Dean into a catatonic state.
Nearly eighteen months full of doctors and treatments go by, however the only small changes that come in Dean's condition are through the patient and persistent care of his younger brother.
After putting hunting on hold for close to two years, John goes back to it, this time leaving a seven-year-old Sam in charge of his invalid brother. It doesn't take long for DHS to get called in. Barely managing to get off with a warning, John takes the boys and hits the road with them - where he eventually crosses paths with Bobby Singer.
Bobby's always held his tongue when it came to John's boys, but with the new turn of events - and witnessing the state of the boys first hand - he's not about to let things continue on.
Bobby ends up the enemy of the older Winchester...and the guardian to the two younger ones.
Some scenes in the story that bring up strong visuals for me would include:
~ Dean 9, Sammy 5, putting away groceries.
~ Dean draped over Sammy's bloodied body after the attack.
~ Sammy getting Dean to eat for the first time in the hospital - feeding him chocolate pudding.
~ Sammy taking Dean's hand and leading him everywhere.
~ Bobby looking through the diner window, hasn't seen the boys in years, and horrified to see an eleven-year-old Dean a thin and pale shell of his former self.
~ John saying goodbye to his sons in the diner parking lot, Bobby watching on with a tear in his eye.
~ Bobby holding Sam - the boy hugging him tightly - in the kitchen while running a hand through Dean's hair.
~ Bobby grocery shopping with Dean - Dean in the rear basket of a shopping cart, covered in groceries.
~ Sam, Dean, and Uncle Bobby all having a picnic down by the pond.
This story will eventually be part of a Verse, but can indeed stand on its own.
I'd be most grateful if someone out there could put me out of my misery, because I want to read this in the worst way.
Many thanks and fingers crossed,